PAST LIFE STORY #3-- "The Spanish Inquisition"

9/6/18
PAST LIFE STORY #3

"The Spanish Inquisition"

This was the first Other Lifetime that I recalled. In fact it was my introduction to the whole Inner World. My friends Miriam and Karen came over to my house in Freeport one day. It was a hippie commune then--I was a Hippie then. It was right on Main Street, just a couple of blocks down from the LL. Bean store. It was a lovely, large old brick Federalist style home with 14 rooms and a barn.

Miriam, Karen and I sequestered ourselves in my spacious attractive bedroom and they explained to me about Past Lives, as we called them back then in the 1970's. They said that they had just taken the Silva Mind Control Course in Boston, and on the return drive up Route 95 to Maine they had felt very excited about what they had learned to do through the course. However,  they wanted to re-design it and share it so it was slanted more towards women and so it did not cost hundreds of dollars. 

In fact, they did do just that, and  taught the course for free to many women after that! Lovely people, these two women. And the whole New Age movement was all about sharing freely. Without knowing it I think we were heading towards a "Gift Economy," which I still believe in and try to practice often. I am learning not just generosity towards others, but also about how to "allow God to gift me." And as within any gift economy, one doesn't do a swap with someone else usually, but rather you give away knowing that you will be given unto...by someone, sometime, when you need it. The movie "Pay it Forward" was about this.

But back to my first Other Life Recall. After a brief sketch of the process Miriam took me on a guided meditation that allowed me to turn my focus inward and relax me. I share that process on the page entitled METHOD. Karen also allowed herself to turn inward and to relax. Thus the three of us began a journey into my past life together. Yes, it is possible for the guide to see what the guide sees. I, as the guided, was speaking aloud what I was experiencing during the recall. Afterwards,  Karen related that she was seeing the images I saw...but before I described them!

At the end of the  guided meditation, Miriam suggested that I was landing back on Earth, but in another lifetime; as she did I immediately saw myself (but not the me I see in the mirror each morning in this lifetime) in a large , high-ceilinged stone cellar--as one might find in an ancient castle. I was looking down at the scene from a ceiling-perspective. There were two or three men there and I was lying on a "bed"--not one for sleep, but one for torture. I assumed that it was "the rack."

 My hair was very long and  dark and I was being pulled by my hair and my feet in opposite directions. I could see that I was terrified and in pain, but could not feel it myself, in this lifetime. I was a pretty woman of about 30 I should guess. I wore a long loose dirty white dress. I knew that these people were  "men of the church"--men of The Spanish Inquisition.  I believe I was Spanish , but of Jewish heritage. At that time--mid 1400's--a law was created that required all Jews and Muslims in Spain to renounce their religion and to become Catholics. The Inquisition, apparently was a way of inquiring of a person whether their conversion were true or false. One hundred and fifty thousand people were questioned under torture and it is surmised that 3000-5000 were executed--for not convincing their torturers apparently of their good faith effort to become fully Christianized.

I was one of the "lucky" ones I believe; I survived my torture. And as my trance progressed, I saw myself skulking through a poor street and walking up a set of stone steps to enter a building--perhaps a synagogue? Interestingly, Miriam is Jewish in this lifetime. There are no "coincidences," as they are commonly understood. All events that coincide have deeper meaning and implications concenring one another than I are currently generally understood.

In exploring that lifetime a bit more I  did not get the sense that I had a husband. I believe I was a prostitute. There were many types of "crimes" that the Inquisitors eventually brought into their purview--not just the original charge of heresy. Ostensibly, this was all about turning people towards being good Catholics. However, on a deeper psychological level it was about the men of the church feeling badly about their own shortcomings, of which, being human, there were many.

The psychological syndrome--which still exists today--goes like this: first one encounters a circumstance, or a recollection of a circumstance in which one acted badly. One's behavior was "off" or out of alignment with the feeling and optimal choice of one's Inner Being. So a thing, which Seth called "Natural Guilt" (as opposed to culturally concocted artificial guilt) arises. Now, ideally this natural guilt would be recognized as a tip off that one is suddenly creating a "vibratory distance," as it were, between ones' self and one's Inner Being. One has gone to a lower vibration in one's thinking and feeling than one's Inner Being (who is perfect) has. Thus you are faced with a choice. 

Choice number one: react from your ego self, feel your self esteem threatened, reject the message from Inner Being, project the problem outward onto someone else and see them as "evil-doers," Next one punishes them in order to try and rid your self or your world of the "wrong-doing" you cannot face in yourself. It is a sort of subconsicous self-exorcism of  one's own wrong doing and guilt.

Now the petrification of original spiritual wisdom into religious dogma is a dangerous thing, especially in a time in human history when we are functioning mainly out of our very limited left-brain. That  part of our brain houses our ego mind and it's trying to usurp the role of the right brain, which it cannot do.

Artificial guilt arise from a paradigm of culturally contructed ideas about what is right and wrong. Every era and religion has its own creed, which often are diametrically opposed, thus leading to various types of  punishments, wars, crusades and jihads. Seen from a high spiritual perspective, most of these credos are absurd in the least and cruel in the end.

I just read a Somerset Maugham short story called "The Door of Opportunity" in which the central theme is cowardice. The British had (and perhaps still have) strict ideas about bravery and cowardice. Bravery is highly valued in the British paradigm, and what constitutes bravery is exact. In the story a man in colonial authority hears of a bloody rebellion  nearby involving 150 "natives." He has only 8 men and decides to call for reinforcements and then go to try and suppress it. Meanwhile another very bold, very self confident man has gone with just 3 men and has done the job. He has a powerful belief in himself and his European-ness that the first man has not. The former shoots one of the rebels and cows the rest with his extreme "self-allowing," as I call it. This kind of powerfully held conviction in one's right  and ability to dominate can easily influence others who have less self esteem and belief in their own personal power. The first man in authority either at first felt no guilt about his choice to call for reinforcements or he hid it very well. However, later on he discovers that all of the Europeans, including his wife (who leaves him because of this) believe that he is a coward.

From a spiritual point of view the man might very well have been listening to his Inner Being. He felt fear at the thought of going with only 8 men to suppress a very violent 150 who were killing and burning. Fear is a feeeling sent by Inner Being. It might mean that what one is contemplating is out of alignment with what Inner Being knows is the optimal path. Or it might mean that one is perfectly safe in pursuing tha contemplated course of action if one fully and thoroughly believes that one is safe.

In any case, Maugham clearly feels contempt for the man, just as most of the Europeans did. He thinks he was a bloody coward. He has him groveling at his wife's feet in the end--begging for forgiveness and understanding. But she'll have none of it; and off she goes, presumably in search of amore manly man. But the point is that the beliefs of the culture and the era created artificial guilt in the man--in my estimation. And because he is now an outcast in his culture it would probably rui his life.

Natural guilt is "on"; aritifical guilt is "off." Batural guilt comes from within--from one's inner being; and artificial guilt comes from a set of left-brained rules and laws made up by flawed/limited human beings who have disconnected themselves from their Inner Being. They judge themselves and others--to everyone's diminution.

What is needed is a combined use of both hemispheres and both aspects of the mind--masculine and feminine-- inner and outer directed functions--rational and intuitive. We need them both. However, the left brain is currently--in the course of human spiritual evolution--rejecting the right brain. But, this is behinning to change; nonetheless we are not out of the woods yet.

So my torturers--"Men of God" as they thought of themselves were, at the very beginning of their choice to become torturers, projecting their own cultural guilt away from themselves and out onto any convenient "culprit" who happened by. It would be someone who reminded them of some aspect of themselves that was in trouble--was at a distance in their thinking and feeling from their Inner Being. They might have had an early awareness of their "sinfulness," but would have been unable to face it. Their self esteem was too threatened. Or perhaps they feared banishment into hell. And so they went into denial and pushed any thoughts related to their possible culpability down into their subconscious.

The unhappy objects of their attention would also have their part to play. The Universe plays fair, but one needs to understand the rules. The major one at work here is The Law of Attraction. Like attracts like. Thoughts and feelings are vibrational basically. So whatever, thoughts and feelings one is choosing to entertain, one is sending that vibration out into the Universe. It responds by sending you a physical plane version of your thoughts and feelings.

In this past life I was very likely feeling guilty about selling my body--even though I probably had very good reasons for doing so. But I accepted the patriarchal Religions of the day's assessment of me and felt guilty. Both Judaism and Catholicism thought of women who sold their bodies or had sex outside of marriage as being sinners--and they believed that sinners must be punished.

Meanwhile, then, as now, many men of the church were breaking the laws of the church and the Bibles, as regards sex. They hungered after women or other men, or even children. They wanted to use them sexually. And they often did...and do! Not long ago I learned from a priest/friend that when he joined the novitiate of his religion, he was secretly "initiated" by priests of higher standing, by being forced to perform fellatio on them and to listen to the celebrants speak the words of the holy sacrament of Holy Communion as he did so! 

It was extremely traumatic for him, but he knew better than to try and inform on them. It would end his aspirations to be a priest in that church. Thus, he has never told anyone in authority about his extremely traumatic experience.

Therefore, from my stand point in this lifetime I can look with compassion upon myself and even my torturers. Understanding them psychologically is a first step. The bigger step, which I am still reaching for, is to understand fully that we are all One Being. I am God, and you are God; we are One in God. So what I do to you, I do to myself. I want to understand and be forgiven for my "sins" which originally was an archery term meaning "missed the mark."

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I did not attempt to repattern this life. But I am extremely grateful to Miriam and Karen for introducing me to the Inner World and how to connect with many other lifetimes. Soon after this Past Life Regression, as we called it, I signed up for their "Woman-Craft " Course, which they had patterned after Silva Mind Control to a degree. That opened me up to even more powers of my mind that I had no clue I possessed.

Our class, learned how to do "Psychic Diagnosis," "Distance Healing," "Self-Healing," "Laying on of Hands," "Psychic Healing," "Animal Communication," "Past Life Recalls," "Clairvoyance," "Clair-audience," "Out-of-Body-Travel,"  "Connecting with Your Guides," "Psychometry" and much more. It was astounding to me what I and others could do! This all lead to my being able to travel the Inner Planes, visit other realities, and to eventually meet my Inner Being. This latter was the most important of all. If I had any advice to give another it would be to start with this last phenomenon. 

There is nothing more important than getting to know one's Inner Being--our God-Self. This is a personal relationship that is extremely rewarding. It makes every other positive endeavor known to human-kind worth while...and without that connection, nothing will satisfy. That is my experience.